Conflicted

(Lyrics)

Credits:

Production, composition, arrangement, chorus lyrics, music video direction, artwork art direction: Garrett Gengler

Verse Lyrics: Marcile Wilmot

Supporting Vocals: Lakreme Lindo, Alida Doornberg

Mixing: Rob Kinelski

Mastering: Dave Kutch

Artwork photographed by: Tasha Marie Palmer

[photographed above: Bayeux Cathedral (sound inspiration), Alida Doornberg, Marcile + Lakreme in studio]

G - The video for Conflicted (above) stands as a major accomplishment for Marcile and I. The whole process of how we pulled this video off still baffles me. I was at the gym listening to Conflicted when Marcile texted me asking if I had any idea what we were going to do for it's music video. I realized I had not given thought to that yet. I closed my eyes and thought for a moment what it would look like, and I am extremely proud to say that what you see above is almost exactly what I imagined, to a T. Given the song's meaning and connection to Marcile, I wanted the video to portray numbness on the surface (represented by the scenes of Marcile in the white room, staring off, blankly), juxtaposed against a raging storm of explosive inner confusion, conflict, fear, and "lostness" (represented by the chorus imagery). The two worlds begin to collide; the inner turmoil begins to break through the surface. This "fighting" is what the video portrays. 

Directed by myself, the video was shot partially in the nearest major city to us, Edmonton (Alberta) in a small photographer's studio (first photo below). This was Phase I of the video's creation, involving close up, studio lit scenes in a cyclorama environment. We had no idea a cyc wall existed in Edmonton, a city not commonly known for film & entertainment. Special thank you to Umar Junaid, who was able to let us into this studio and help us with lighting that day.

Next was Phase II, shot in the basement of my sister's house (of all places). We needed a space we could shoot in for free and since she was gone on a business trip she allowed us to use her basement for the night. That day I raced out of work, rented as many strobe lights as I could fit into my trunk, brought it all to my sister's basement, set everything up as the sun set & just went for it. With the help of my cousin Anne Gengler, we captured the projector overlay & strobe light scenes that appear in the chorus. Below I've included three dimly lit photos from this shoot. 

The Final Phase of this video's creation had us flying to the Arts District in L.A. to meet videographer Charles Bergquist and tackle the entrancing slow motion scenes. Working with Charles was an absolute dream come true. The small team he put together for the shoot (himself DP, Katrina Adair 1st AC, Brian Williamson Lead Gaffer, Elaina Karras H+MUA) became like family to Marcile and I and were an inspiration to work with. Below I've included a behind the scenes video showing how the slow motion scenes were made, a photo of Charles' Phantom Flex 4k (the camera that made the shoot possible), a photo of Elaina and Marcile getting ready before the shoot and a photo of Charles, Katrina and I at dinner after the shoot. Memories for life! An incredible artistic experience as director.